Monday, March 10, 2008

The Carrier





Aysha is the first child without DS I gave birth too. She is a carrier of the Translocation 21/14 like I am. I often wonder if I will bring her up right. When she grows up and has children, I hope she never will consider termination. If she does, to me it will mean, I failed as a mother. I worry about what life will be like in 20 years for her when she may be ready to have a child. Will they have a testing stick to put on your tongue, to tell you if your baby has a chromosome problem? Will insurance refuse to cover a child brought into this world when the parents knew there was a "problem", maybe insurances will be paying for terminations but nothing other for the child born with a disability.

I ask God to help me raise my daughter to realize that all life is special, that every life is worth something. That she will always be close to her sisters. Maybe she will be one of the very few people in the next generation that is willing to have a baby, no matter what. I sure hope so.


4 comments:

Kari said...

YAY Gayla!! Glad you have a blog. I have thought about you many times and since mostly all I do online these days is blog and scrap I will hopefully be able to stay in better touch with you now! :)

JennyH said...

I love the pictures of each of your kids. They are so precious. I also like that you tell us info about each so we can somewhat 'get to know' them.

Anonymous said...

This post is amazing, Gayla. I am happy that we are raising our children to appreciate all people.

Christine said...

What a heartfelt post. Your love for your daughter shines through.